Baby Loss is a subject that I, along with many other parents, are sadly too familiar with.
In April of 2016 we had to say goodbye to our twin girls at just short of 13 weeks gestation, you can read more about our story here. It was utterly devastating and the most difficult thing I have ever had to face. Both my husband and I felt so alone and unsure of how to deal with the situation, struggling to find support/advice of anyone going through similar.
We both agreed that we still wanted to share the news of the pregnancy as our girls had existed, if only for a short time, but in that short time they had already had such a huge impact on our lives. When we did share our news, we soon realised just how many others had also experienced baby loss.
At the time of writing this, we are now just over two years on. I don't think the grief ever gets any less as such, but it becomes a part of your journey and you learn to move forward with it. There are still days when I feel totally consumed by grief and sadness but there are also days when we smile about our girls, all three of them and the chaos that would have undoubtedly been whizzing through our home. Our eldest daughter will randomly bring up her two little sisters in conversation, talking about the 'what if's' and 'maybes', before moving on to the more pressing matter of having a biscuit! Baby loss, for me, is bittersweet, it is heart breaking and heart bursting all at the same time.
It's from this bittersweetness that the idea of this portrait project was dreamt up. A portrait series to allow parents to share their stories in their own words, celebrating and remembering their babies, whilst hopefully offering some comfort to those who find themselves in a similar situation.
To those who have taken part in this project - thank you! I truly am so grateful!